Hello love,
I'm looking through the early spring view from my window and all I see is the forest that used to be, the forest that is no more.(*)
All that is left is a few branches that haven't yet been cleared by the municipality, and the big fallen tree in our garden that is still unmoved.
Nature remodeled.
For weeks I struggled. I wanted to get back to normal and fast, leave all that in the past, bounce back.
After all, we aren't in a war zone. Our home is fine, our family is fine. What else is there to do but get back to normal?
What I didn't understand immediately is that when life remodels around you, it also rearranges itself within you.
Whether you experience a natural disaster, a loss, a divorce (aren't there all the same thing?) there is no going back to normal.
Instead, you create a new normal with the new version of yourself you have become.
And so I sat, and I asked myself:
- Who am I becoming?
- How have my beliefs changed? Which are stronger, and which became obsolete?
- What lost parts of myself am I grieving? What new parts of myself do I want to cultivate and nurture?
- What is it that I want to keep building both in my business and in my life?
- How can I make it all more sustainable long-term?
I found my answers. I know they will evolve. But I trust.
Not that nothing else will happen. But that when it does, I'll be able to transform again.
Power and light,
Jessica
(*) On January 27, Portugal was hit by a series of violent storms. Kristin, the strongest of them all, was a hurricane-strength one with winds up to 200km/h. My town was heavily damaged, and we stayed, like thousands of other households, without water or electricity for 8 days. Other parts of the country have been dramatically flooded, resulting in thousands of people losing their homes.